I’ve been spending a lot of time on reddit, r/LinkinPark and other platforms where I can share this grief with people who completely understand me.
I’ve logged out of all other social media. People have been talking shxt there. And social media is toxic especially in times like this.
I know every fan all over the world feel devastated too.
My heart is shattered. I’ve never felt such pain before. I feel like I lost a friend. A best friend.
When I learned about it, it was 7PM, UK time. Talking To Myself video just came out, and as I was watching it, I read a comment “he just died”. I was hoping it’s fake. Then after a few minutes, everybody else was talking about it.
I live in the UK. I’m new to this country. So there’s actually nobody to talk to. I called my mom. It was 2AM in my home country but I really needed somebody to talk to.
I stayed up until 4AM, crying, and waiting for my little brother to wake up and call him because he’s a huge fan as well.
I filed leave from work because I don’t think I am in the right frame of mind to work. I’ve been crying non stop, fell asleep crying, and woke up crying again.
I really really love Linkin Park. I’ve always been in love with them since the first time I heard them. Chester was the voice of my formative years.
I don’t know how or when will I ever recover from this heartbreak.
I don’t know if time can even tell.