First things first. Please don’t attack me.
Please also don’t tell me ‘Mike has a right to do whatever helps him-’ I know that.
I’m supportive of that. In no way do I have an issue with that, and that’s not related to what I’m going to say.
That said; am I the only one anxious over the release of Post Traumatic? Just knowing we’re going to get submerged in the nitty-gritty and I’m not sure I want to be reminded of stuff that’s messed me up- far and beyond just LP or CB things, honestly- or associate it with Mike’s voice. (I’ve heard the first three songs he put out there. Over again had me effed up, you never know how much of you is derived from another person until you’re just having a normal conversation with a sibling or long time friend you go to say, ‘Twinsies’ or ‘How’s it feel?! To be the guy?!’ or ‘Will you be there?’ or countless other references. And they aren’t even LP fans, but they knew those people through me, through the impact they had on my personality. For a while, every time someone would accidentally reference something, they’d stop halfway through and look uncomfortable. I started to finish the quotes, and smile and laugh, even when it was hard. I want those memories to stay good things, because they are.)
I’m going to spill (well, some of) my guts here. I know we have to face the hardest parts of difficult times in order to get through them. I think, often times, if you turn away, you can’t get better.
And I love Mike. I have always admired him, his work, his art, everything. I want to show him support on this. I think him releasing PT is a brilliant, not to mention incredibly courageous, idea. Not only is he going to work through his conflicts and issues, but I know that’s going to help countless others, too.
I’m just not sure when- or if- I’ll be able to listen to PT.
Because honestly, I know what that feeling is. I’m not sure the journey through the album would help with everything I’ve seen, or if it would add to the burden.
I don’t know. Part of me wants to listen; maybe it’d help. Music has helped and touched me in so many ways that nothing else ever could. Then again, there has been some music that has made it much, much worse. For now, I’m choosing to abstain. I think if I’m meant to listen, something will tell me so. We’ll see.
I guess I don’t really need any replies to this, it’s just been swimming around in my head and I needed someplace to put it.