So, I’ll just post the situation here so anyone who can relate or understand is able to chime in.
I’m a Capricorn Rising, Libra Ascendant. Been in a “relationship” with a Scorpio guy for over 3yrs. I put the term relationship in quotes for 2 reasons:
one, our relationship does not fit in a box and we have built it slowly over this time…
two, because he does not want to call our “relationship” what it really is.
I completely understand his reasons, as they are valid, but I am getting very impatient because I am at the point where I really want and need a consistent commitment from him.
We have both been hurt by infidelity from previous relationships. We are both scared - him of commitment, and me of getting burned.
Everything thing you could possibly want in a relationship, we have. Our relationship was built on mutual respect as a friendship first, we bonded over our deep connection to music. But he is always “running” from me and retreats for a week or more at a time with zero communication. This only causes my insecurities to kick in and I have to force the negative thoughts out of my mind that he is finding some interest in another girl, even though I know the depth of everything we share. It’s a very painful and lonely cycle that I would really like to see a happy ending to.
Everything in the way he treats me when we are together says he feels deeply connected to me and loves me, which is what makes his periods of no communication so damn frustrating and confusing. He has said he loves me, feels safe with me, and that he just feels better when I am around. He is very protective of me as well as patient and considerate. I know that these behaviors are normal for a Scorpio guy, I have gotten to know all of his very well, and I have gone through plenty of periods of time with him where I have let him have his space, and I do my own thing without feeling so torn over it. He always comes back to me no matter how long it’s been, and it’s like no time has passed at all, we pick right up where we left off.
I guess I’m just looking for hope? Everything in the “Stars” indicates that I can be hopeful, but ultimately, I know I can’t keep on this cycle indefinitely and he needs to make a choice. I can’t force him because I can’t bear even the thought of losing him. He is so intertwined in my soul, my every being that when I am away from him too long, I just feel spiritually drained.
I’m chalking this up to the usual Capricorn inner turmoil and brooding, trying to remain hopeful.
But if anyone can lift me up, I’d sure appreciate it.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this.