Left Behind -- album by NickGr


#1

Album description:
This album is maybe about the most personal stuff I’ve ever dared to share — it’s about a breakup which was slowly occurring for the last 5-6 months. Now it’s gone. And you know what? I don’t regret it is. Some of the tracks never published before, some of them are newest.
Genre is nu-metal

Burned(intro track)

https://soundcloud.com/egocentric-pancake/burned

You Make Me Bleed

screaming
Verse I:
All I do is just making it worse
My chains are burning my skin
Locked up inside with my own curse
Buried alive in the streets of dim
I feel nothing but vultures eating me

Pre-chorus:
Can’t do anything about you and me
No decisions, no words, just choking on my scream

Chorus:
screaming
You are
The one who
Who makes me wanna scream
You are
The one who
The one who makes me bleed!
screaming

Verse II:
It gets harder to control
As you’re wrapping up my soul
In a barbwire with acid of dead air
I crawl in my own despair

Pre-chorus:
Can’t do anything about you and me
No decisions, no words, just choking on my scream

Chorus:
screaming
You are
The one who
Who makes me wanna scream
And I am
The one who
The one who broken my own dream
In this despair you make me bleed

screaming

Bridge:
Even in this silence I look up to you
You’re my disease, you’re my perfect doom

You are
The one who
Who makes me wanna scream
You are
The one who
The one who makes me bleed!

In a calm voice:
It’s all gone now

Into The Darkness(original)

Verse I:

Blood is pouring from my body, from my soul
Почему я не оставлю тебя позади?
I’m lost in between, I’m loosing control
Есть ли смысл вставать и идти ?

Is there an escape ? Is there a light to reach?
Я забыт, замурован с собою
Suffocated by walls, body aches, is it wrong ?
Словно ВИЧ в крови, слабость не скрою
Will I ever find a place I belong ?
Даже слов не сказать, только вою

Pre chorus:
Everything around me falls apart
The pus flows in me and covers my heart

Chorus:
Flowing into a darker sea of pretend
(Мой разум разбит на куски)
Falling apart, falling into my death bed
(Вроде счастье было так близко)

Verse II:
Сам творец всего этого, сам себе смерть
I’m crawling and I feel alone
Давно забыл, как это: под ногами твердь
Yes, again under the black dome
Again cursed to live with my own fault

Pre chorus:
Everything around me falls apart
The pus flows in me and covers my heart

Chorus:
Flowing into a darker sea of pretend
(Мой разум разбит на куски)
Falling apart, falling into my death bed
(Вроде счастье было так близко)
I’m choking, I’m dying but can’t reach the end
(Своим криком лишь кровь проливаю)
(Не живу, но не умер, только заперт во тьме)
(С каждым днём свой рассказ продлеваю)

Chorus:
Flowing into a darker sea of pretend
(Мой разум разбит на куски)
Falling apart, falling into my death bed
(Вроде счастье было так близко)
I’m choking, I’m dying but can’t reach the end
(Своим криком лишь кровь проливаю)
(Не живу, но не умер, только заперт во тьме)
(С каждым днём свой рассказ продлеваю)

Into The Darkness(translated)

Verse I:
Blood is pouring from my body, from my soul
(Why can’t I leave you behind?)
I’m lost in between, I’m loosing control
(Is there a sense to get up and go on?)

Is there an escape ? Is there a light to reach?
(I’m forgotten, buried with myself)
Suffocated by walls, body aches, what is wrong ?
(Like AIDS in my blood, can’t hide my weakness)
Will I ever find a place I belong ?
(Can’t even say anything , just howling)

Pre chorus:
Everything around me falls apart
The pus flows in me and covers my heart

Chorus:
Flowing into a darker sea of pretend
(My mind is broken to pieces)
Falling apart, falling into my death bed
(Seems my happiness was just so close)

Verse II:
I’m the one who did it, I’m my own death
I’m crawling and I feel alone
Long forgotten how is it to have a ground to stand
Yes, again under the black dome
And cursed to live with my own fault

Pre chorus:
Everything around me falls apart
The pus flows in me and covers my heart

Chorus:
Flowing into a darker sea of pretend
(My mind is broken to pieces)
Falling apart, falling into my death bed
(Seems my happiness was just so close)
I’m choking, I’m dying but can’t reach the end
(With my scream all I do is bleeding
Not alive but not dead,just locked up in the darkness
Everyday I’m continuing my story)

Can't Let It Go

Verse I:
I’ve cracked my wounds open again
Again and again putting venom in my veins
I am trapped, doomed to fight this till I’m insane
I don’t know if I live the other day
But I can’t tell if I should go on
Why do I fight myself? I’m loosing control
The world blurs and I feel lost all alone
How come that I’ve done this to me?
How come that I’ve locked me up and tossed the key ?
Will I ever be able to set this soul free?

Chorus:
(Why)
should I stand up and fight again ?
(Why)
should I be the one to numb the pain ?
(Why)
should I remember everything ?
And
(why)
can’t I let go of the past things ?

Verse II:
I stop as the memory of the other day flows on me
It’s so good to stay out of reality
But I know I can’t hide inside of the past
I wake up to get into all of this mess
It’s suffocating me, cracking me, tearing me apart
How can I ever find my own path?
And I walk out and there’s nothing I can see
But the ashes of time covering me
I stop fighting, I close my eyes and I fall
But the truth is that there’s no truth at all
And I wake up again in the circle of my own

Chorus:
(Why)
should I stand up and fight again ?
(Why)
should I be the one to numb the pain ?
(Why)
should I remember everything ?
And
(why)
can’t I let go of the past things ?

Bridge:
(Nowhere to go)
Can’t let it go, can’t set it free
(Nothing to see)
I’m in fault for my own misery
(Nothing to hear)
Crumbling into my insanity
(No air to breathe)
I give up now and let ashes cover me

Chorus:
(Why)
should I stand up and fight again ?
(Why)
should I be the one to numb the pain ?
(Why)
should I remember everything ?
And
(why)
can’t I let go of the past things ?
Even death won’t set me free

Remember The Times(based on AceMasters' verse)

Remember the times you felt like you were walking on air, like you don’t care, pretended that life felt fair.
Remember the times you didn’t have to fear, everything was clear, when everybody around was here.
Remember the times when life wasn’t hard, you never felt dark, when people used to make you laugh.
But all you remember now is that people are not there, life really isn’t fair, you feel like no-one really cares.

Instrumental.
Chorus:
Remember times and your forces
Remember vibes and that’s there no return
All you can do now is stop chasing old causes
Wake up and let yourself heal your wounds

Verse II:
Remember the time when there was no sickness
Remember the time you didn’t have to overcome your weakness
But now all you’ve got is to be outdone
Realising what you have done
Remember the times you’ve got to live
And be with the ones you love here
Remember the times you weren’t falling down
Remember the times you used to wear your crown

Chorus

Final build up:
And now you’ve forgotten how to sing
Sinking down without being able to swim
There’s no sunrise to come here
And all you’ve got to is to

Remember times and your forces

Remember vibes and that’s there no return

All you can do now is deal with older doses
Wake up and let yourself heal your wounds

Remember times and your forces
Remember vibes and that’s there no return
All you can do now is stop chasing old causes
Wake up and let yourself heal your wounds

Lost Frequennce -- instrumental

https://soundcloud.com/egocentric-pancake/lost-frequence

Falling Out

Verse I:
I’m coming down to the untold
I stop in the middle of my mind
Can’t scream, can’t whisper, choking on words
There wasn’t anything right

Pre-chorus:
I’m trapped in a darker maze
I feel only venom in my veins

Chorus:
I’m falling out
Back into darkness, back into pain
I’m crumbling down
Running from myself: the one i’m afraid
There’s nothing left but fear and doubts

Verse II:
Stepping out in a world of doom
Locked up in a living tomb
Pretending that I know where i’m going to
But i can’t really leave this dark room

Pre-chorus:
I’m trapped in a darker maze
I feel only venom in my veins

Chorus:
I’m falling out
Back into darkness, back into pain
I’m crumbling down
Running from myself: the one i’m afraid
There’s nothing left but fear and doubts

Bridge:
I wash myself away
Realizing all of this was in vain
I have nowhere to go to now
I’ve got no way to make it out

Guitar solo

Chorus:
I’m falling out
Back into darkness, back into pain
I’m crumbling down
Running from myself: the one i’m afraid
There’s nothing left but fear and doubts

Say My Last Goodbye

Verse I:
I’ve started this so long ago
I don’t remember why
Was I ever not alone?
And why I have to fight?

Chorus:
Left behind everything
All I’ve done in vain
Haven’t left anything
Anything but pain
Anything but lies
I’m here to say my last goodbye

Say my last goodbye

Verse II:
Standing in the desert
Staring in the dark
Is there such a resort
Where I can heal my scars?
Can I be forgiven now
For all the sins I’ve done?
Can I finally find my heart
And go on without a doubt?

Chorus:
Left behind everything
All I’ve done in vain
Haven’t left anything
Anything but pain
Anything but lies
I’m here to say my last goodbye

Say my last GOODBYE

Bridge:
There’s nothing left but rage
I’m crawling in my own demise
Will I ever change?
I just want to apologise
And finally say my last
Goodbye

Chorus:
Left behind everything
All I’ve done in vain
Haven’t left anything
Anything but pain
Anything but lies
I’m here to say my last goodbye

Say my last goodbye

Starting My Own Road

Chorus I:
I’m starting my own road
Walking on my own
It’s been a hundred years I
Haven’t walked alone

Verse I:
How could I ever believe I’ll be so free?
And when it came down to this I had to cut it
Cause when instead of love you’re in tremendous dream
You just lose control and somehow have to stop it

Pre-chorus:
And now I realize the end was long before
And I’m lifting it up and letting you go

Chorus II:
I’m starting my own road
Walking on my own
It’s been a hundred years I
Haven’t walked alone

And now I stand up for real
Going on, leaving this behind
Cause at this point there’s no feel
Prolonging it now means only lies

Verse II:
I can’t say leaving it behind wasn’t painful
I can’t tell you how much it all meant to me
But this movie now has its tape full
And now I’m free from all of this misery

Pre-chorus:
And now I realize the end was long before
And I’m lifting it up and letting you go

Chorus:

I’m starting my own road
Walking on my own
It’s been a hundred years I
Haven’t walked alone

And now I stand up for real
Going on, leaving this behind
Cause at this point there’s no feel
Prolonging it now means only lies

Bridge:
I stop breaking through this wall
Open my eyes and going on!
Free at last, having soldiers on my side
And now I’m finally leaving you behind

Cause now it’s the time to

Starting my own road
Walking on my own
It’s been a hundred years I
Haven’t walked alone

And now I stand up for real
Going on, leaving this behind
Cause at this point there’s no feel
Prolonging it now means only lies

Moving On – Instrumental

The Band:
@acemasters
@the_termin8r
@rickvanmeijel
@gatsie
@jabinquaken
@theearlywalker
@NoireXJasper
@Honey8
@framos1792
@AJ_7


#2

^^^^^^^^^
@lpfan61
@yolo5494


#3

Will the lyrics ever get instrumental tracks?


#4

Probably if i give up on the studies and start only writing music … then yeah, probably. I Have the music sounding in my head but still – i need a band to put it in the exact way


#5

Nick ( @NickGr) this turely amazing this a wonderful album and you are a fabulous writer and you have a true gift for writing it’s just fabulous


#6

Thank you Steph :)))


#7

Your welcome you gave me inspiration for writing And @acemasters as well for writing you have a gift Nick


#8

Ill read and listen later


#9

Same as Ace, feedback asap :blush:


#10

When did you wrote all this new lyrics? I will read them tomorrow too - thanx for the share :blush::hugs:


#11

These are existing lyrics.


#12

Oh… then I already have given my feedback for them … were they published here already?


#13

@NickGr i feel Honored to be included in your album :blush::blush::blush:

You really bought my little thing to life and made it your own

However, not a fan of the intro instrumental but apart from that you exceeded yourself


#14

The instrumental is the first tryout of Logic ProX. Interface is similar to GB but has some differences so…
And thank you for your feedback

Not all! The last one is the newest, written 3 days ago or so. And Remember The Times I have forgotten about lol (sent it to Ace though)


#15

“Starting my own road” is my favourite between these tracks! :blush: :smile:
I’m really curious to listen to a whole track (music and singing) and hope to get this chance soon!! :blush: :muscle: :muscle:
“Burned” could fit in a thriller movie… :thinking: it gave me kinda a tension feeling… :ghost: :grin:


#16

Mine too :raised_hands:t4:


#17

Great lyrics Nick! My favorites are Can’t Let It Go, Say My Last Goodbye and Starting My Own Road. I like how the album progresses from a negative and bad place to a more positive view about finding freedom.


#18

Very good Nick :blush::blush: i am sooo happy to see this! Proud of you brother! :tada::confetti_ball::sparkles:
I loved all the lyrics… especially into the darkness… That’s great that you also put native language and remix it. Nice one

And remember the times was just like a blast. Perfect verses!

“Starting on my own”!! :sparkles::confetti_ball::smiley::smiley: Niceeee!

Very Happ to see an awesome album! Great work Nick! :tada::notes:


#19

Thanx guys @rickvanmeijel @Honey8 :hugs:


#20

Finally I read it- some lyrics I knew but it was like getting them in their deepness today. Means getting you in your deepness.

I know you for a long time now and let me tell you this: we all have this part in us that makes us feel like what you describe in especially the first four songs and your talent to find the right words to let the listener feel it, is amazing.

I also like the cooperation with ace very much, and the intro and link to your soundcloud too. Great idea :+1:t2:.

Finally the last two songs sound like a change for me, the feel they give to me is more powerful, optimistic and a turn to the better- feels like you are moving on on your own road- and that’s only amazing!

Congrats to your first album bro, absolutely well done :tada::muscle:t2::heart_eyes: