Running Into Myself - NickGr(lyric album)


#1

Album description
This album contains the songs that are personal for me.
Some of them are extremely personal. I flow the lyrics through myself while writing. So once again - it’s extremely personal(and also feels a little egotistical lol). Some lyrics are never published before
It’s mostly alternative with some rock additions

Airborn

Genre: alternative/electro
Verse I:
I awake and I feel myself airborn
Broke my chains and I’m leaving this closed dome
Mending up and preparing for greater road
Breathing up as I say it loud

Chorus:
I’m airborn
(Ooooh)
I’m airborn
(Ooooh)
I’m airborn
(Oooh)

Verse II:
I find myself swimming from the forgotten shore
I’ve never felt like this before
I’m not running anymore
I stand up and fight cause I’m airborn

Chorus:
I’m airborn
(Ooooh)
I’m airborn
(Ooooh)
I’m airborn
(Oooh)

Dust

Genre: rock/alternative
Verse 1:
Dust covers my soul and flows inside
It’s going down to the point you can’t imagine in your mind
The world is grey: days surrounds me
Like a blanket that is impossible to see
Time isn’t endless, it breaks now, flooding and killing the men
And here it starts again
Over and over our chain of vain
Breaks, and then wraps itself upon the time of pretend
And by the time it ends, I will drown at the bend

Chorus:
Here I come tonight with eyes wide closed
(It all comes to end now)
I open up my soul and let the woe flow
(But I won’t bow down)
I need someone to wash this dust out

Verse 2:
This chapter of my life has no end
I’m trying to joke and pretend
That this vain doesn’t follow me
I try not to let anyone see
Ash covers me: it tastes like my fate
I’ve died a long before this day
My mind is frozen: there’s no end
There’s nothing you can do to revive the dead

Chorus:

Here I come tonight with eyes wide closed
(It all comes to end now)
I open up my soul and let the woe flow
(But I won’t bow down)
I need someone to wash this dust out

Bridge:
I can’t stop this grey day
There’s now escape now
I stand alone with my pain
So come and see now
It’s all crumbling down
(whispers: I can’t hold on anymore)

Chorus:

Here I come tonight with eyes wide closed
(It all comes to end now)
I open up my soul and let the woe flow
(But I won’t bow down)
I need someone to wash this dust out
And the sunrise fills me with the flow
The new day is here, it’s bright and loud…

The Void

Genre: Nu-Metal

So here it all comes back
I can’t hold off that attack
No one can see the hell inside of me
Growing so distant
I’m standing at the river bend
The flow is dead: hell is taking place
I’m falling without any grace

Pre-chorus:
So now I stand in here: vultures are waiting
The void is looking at me
Just one step left and I can’t say

Chorus:
If I can hold on
Stay in this cold world
How can I just go on?
The cold inside of me
Rises and I can’t breathe
I’m into the dark realm
Can just someone save me from this hell?
(Save me from this hell)

Verse 2:
I’m standing here alone
What have I become?
Without that fire
I feel I’ll surely cross the line

Pre-chorus:
So now I stand in here: vultures are waiting
The void is looking at me
Just one step left and I can’t say

Chorus:
If I can hold on
Stay in this cold world
How can I just go on?
The cold inside of me
Rises and I can’t breathe
I’m into the dark realm
Can just someone save me from this hell?
(Save me from this hell)
Save me from this hell

Bridge:
And I tear my soul apart again
All of this is a vain
And I’m full of pain
I can’t save myself
I’m digging out my grave
For now the woe waves
And I’m about to kill myself again
If I can hold on
Stay in this cold world
How can I just go on?
The cold inside of me
Rises and I can’t breathe
I’m into the dark realm
Can just someone save me from this hell?
(Save me from this hell)

Trying Not To Fall - instrumental

Hit The Road

Genre: alternative

I don’t want to stay
I’m not afraid
Let’s pick stuff up and choose the way!
I hope I’m not alone
I want to hit the road
Let’s go and clear the mold!

Verse I:
I was like a vampire in the night
I’ve drowned in a never-ending fight
Alone in the giant formicary of society
Now I’ve finally reached the clarity
Silence
As an end of polluting violence
I want to leave out the sirens
My soul finds the peace in the road
And I won’t come back to the streets of cold

Chorus:
I don’t want to stay
I’m not afraid
Let’s pick stuff up and choose the way!
I hope I’m not alone
I want to hit the road
Let’s go and clear the mold!

Verse II:
I was thinking that’s there’s no way to heal my wounds
Till you came to ruin this tomb
So here comes some real volume
No one can easily steal my soul
So let’s hit the road together now
Go on, singing this song loud
’Cause:

Chorus:
I don’t want to stay
I’m not afraid
Let’s pick stuff up and choose the way!
I hope I’m not alone
I want to hit the road
Let’s go and clear the mold!
Solo( some sort of keyboard, guitar and piano)

Chorus:
I don’t want to stay
I’m not afraid
Let’s pick stuff up and choose the way!
I hope I’m not alone
I want to hit the road
Let’s go and clear the mold!
Let’s go on revealing the world so shining
And continue this way of reviving
I’m saying goodbye to the darkness
’Cause there’s you beaming with brightness

Her

Genre: alternative
I’ve thought the first time would be the last
But then I’ve met her
I’ve known and fell in love so fast
I’m losing control

Chorus:
She is a wonderful being
She is a human of wise thoughts
I’d like to gift her the world
And I feel revived whenever she’s near

She truly trusts, she writes some wonders
She can be a living thunder
Her name’s the one to hear, her voice is the one to heal
And I find myself crushed in…

Chorus:
She is a wonderful being
She is a human of wise thoughts
I’d like to gift her the world
And I feel revived whenever she’s near

Bridge:
I can feel my soul flying
She’s the only one, but she can also deny it
I wake up as a new being

Chorus:
She is a wonderful being
She is a human of wise thoughts
I’d like to gift her the world
And I feel revived whenever she’s near

Her - instrumental

https://soundcloud.com/egocentric-pancake/her

My Amnesia

Genre: nu-metal

Verse I:
So here I go again
Standing in the middle of my mind
All of this was in vain
It has washed my insides

Pre-chorus:
Everything I’ve done before
Nothing would get me out of this hole

Chorus:
So let me die here alone
I’ve crushed everything I had
Cursed to be myself and I don’t even know
Whom I used to pretend
I have to pick myself up again
It’s my Amnesia
(It’s my Amnesia)

Verse II:
Looking in the mirror at the sandman watching me
There’s nothing you can do
There’s nothing I can keep
Mocking myself
There’s no end of this game
I don’t know how to pick myself out of this vain

Pre-chorus:
Everything I’ve done before
Nothing would get me out of this hole

Chorus:
So let me die here alone
I’ve crushed everything I had
Cursed to be myself and I don’t even know
Whom I used to pretend
I have to pick myself up again
Running away from myself in a fear
Devil inside of me wants me to deal
I’ve caught myself up in my Amnesia

My Amnesia

Bridge:
Drowning in a sands of untold
Falling back into the cold
Running in circles and trembling with fear
And i know for sure that my end is near

Chorus:
So let me die here alone
I’ve crushed everything I had
Cursed to be myself and I don’t even know
Whom I used to pretend
I have to pick myself up again
Running away from myself in a fear
Devil inside of me wants me to deal
I’ve caught myself up in my Amnesia
My Amnesia
(My Amnesia)

My Amnesia

Silent Scream

Genre: rock/alternative

Verse I:
Silence is my own choice
No one can wake me from this nightmare
Consuming memory of your voice
I don’t want to wage the warfare

Pre-chorus:
I’m trying to open my eyes and pretend
That all of these wounds can be mended again

Chorus:
Screaming all alone
(I’m in fault for this nightmare)
Myself is the man I don’t own
(And nothing can be done: I’m aware)
Can I escape this grave of my own?

Verse II:
Locked myself under this dome
Trying to breathe out
Should I leave it and be alone?
Or should I stand up and fight now?

Pre-chorus:
I’m trying to open my eyes and pretend
That all of these wounds can be mended again

Chorus II:
Screaming all alone
(I’m in fault for this nightmare)
Myself is the man I don’t own
(And nothing can be done: I’m aware)
Can I escape this grave of my own?
Can I escape from the shattering hole?
Wake me up from this nightmare

Bridge:
Now I have no choice
The cold is dragging me down
Choking on my mute voice
And I’ve got no way out

Chorus II:
Screaming all alone
(I’m in fault for this nightmare)
Myself is the man I don’t own
(And nothing can be done: I’m aware)
Can I escape this grave of my own?
Can I escape from the shattering hole?
Wake me up from this nightmare

Death Is Not An Escape

Genre: nu-metal

Verse 1:
Trying to hold on to a new day
But still can’t escape the darkness
I’ve entered a never-ending pain
My soul is filled with dark light brightness

Pre-chorus:
Death is not an escape
Everyday I wake up in a grave
I feel I’ll drown in myself the next day

Chorus:
I bleed within my soul closed
This rotting is my own curse
There’s no shore to swim to
So I’ll become my own victim

Verse 2:
Stopped again, thinking of my lies
I used to live with a pride
Now I’m a slave of my own mind
If I die, I can’t see it unwinds

Pre-chorus:
Death is not an escape
Everyday I wake up in a grave
I feel I’ll drown in myself the next day

Chorus:
I bleed within my soul closed
This rotting is my own curse
There’s no shore to swim to
So I’ll become my own victim

Bridge:
And my blood was everywhere, flooding the world
I was falling into the untold
But then you appeared, saving my soul
It was you, who saved the man doomed

Pre-chorus:
Death is not an escape
Everyday I wake up in a grave
I feel I’ll drown in myself the next day

Chorus:
I bleed within my soul closed
This rotting is my own curse
There’s no shore to swim to
So I’ll become my own victim

But now there’s you, my source of life
And the new day rises in my mind…

I'm Committing Suicide

Genre: alternative

Verse 1:
Falling into the darkness
The cold inside is rising again
My soul is so lifeless
Everything I’ve done was in vain

Pre-Chorus:
Crumbling down in my mind
I don’t want to see it unwinds

Chorus:
Everything is my fault
I curse myself all this time
There’s no escape from the cold
And I’m committing suicide

I’m committing suicide

Verse 2:
Trying to escape from the sorrow
Laughing with a well-hidden pain
There’s no hope for tomorrow
I feel so numb everyday

Pre-Chorus:
Crumbling down in my mind
I don’t want to see it unwinds

Chorus:
Everything is my fault
I curse myself all this time
There’s no escape from the cold
And I’m committing suicide

I’m committing suicide

Solo

Bridge:
I never really wanted you to see
All of this madness inside of me
I guess for me there’s just no hope
And I’m falling into the untold

Chorus:
Everything is my fault
I curse myself all this time
There’s no escape from the cold
And I’m committing suicide

I’m committing suicide(x2)

Interlude - The Sunrise

Let’s go!
All i’ve ever done was digging out my grave
And now I’m in here rising like a wave
Now I’ve awoken from my nightmare
I feel like a soldier coming home from the frontier
Raising my head , no more shall I bow
All of those thoughts seem so unreal now
And no more this thing inside swallows me
No, I’m killing it, the sun is my blade
And I’m living the new day
Going on my new way
My soul is so clear now , it shines inside
I’ve let everything unwind
And now I’m flying around like a butterfly
Looking over the horizon where the sun shines so bright.

Leave Them Behind

Verse I:
They’ve told me countless times
Lied that I’ve got no chance to compromise
And I’ve believed them and never tried fighting for i want
Now I can see it’s not
Over, not done I’m breathing in
I’m living
I’m crying
I’m fighting
For what i’ve needed all along
And they can’t break me

Chorus:
I don’t need them anymore
I will fight for what I adore
I will rise up from my grave
Going on at the sunrise of a new day!

Verse II:
I look over my life and see
That I’ve missed so much because I wanted to flee
From society that cauterise
All the one that can have no compromise
Tp the lies, abusing and stealing
This is the way of their living

Chorus:
I don’t need them anymore
I will fight for what I adore
I will rise up from my grave
Going on at the sunrise of a new day!

Forward And Backwards (techno instrumental)

Now That You're Gone - bonus( Tribute to Chester)

Genre doesn’t matter

Verse I:
All of this was a sudden surreal
No one could ever know you
Wish this wouldn’t be so clear
And we can’t just stop weeping for you

Pre-chorus:
Everything comes to an end now
There’s no way to make it out

Chorus:
You are off to a better world
Silence is deafening now
Wish we could’ve stopped you from
No one understood you feeling how

Verse II:
You always were a lighthouse in the night
We always loved you no matter what you’ve ever done
Now there’s no reason to fight
When you’re already gone and there’s nothing can be done for

Pre-chorus:
Everything comes to an end now
There’s no way to make it out

Chorus:
You are off to a better world
Silence is deafening now
Wish we could’ve stopped you from
No one understood you feeling how

Bridge:
And I know you would like me to stand up
There’s nothing to close this gap
We all weep for you now
You’re off to far shores now

Chorus:
You are off to a better world
Silence is deafening now
Wish we could’ve stopped you from
No one understood you feeling how

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Sending A Lifeline - NickGr
#2

I shall read this all tomorrow
Read 3


#3

Ok i actually read them all

This is great stuff

Now for me and this is me nip-picking, I think Airborn might need another verse, it just comes across really short, I thought this about Linkin Parks Roads Untravelled, great song, just felt a little cheated that most of the song is whoa-whoaing
Kinda like your Airborn feel that this needs something more, dont know what though


#4

Hey qhat else do you do @NickGr ? Making videos, making music, …

It really nice. I will read those songs later till then I will bookmarkn the message :slight_smile:

Excited for your and @acemasters album :wink:


#5

Wow Nick, I wasn’t aware that you wrote already this much! :clap: Looking fwd to read them all today :sunny:️- and curious too… :+1:t2:


#6

Even I wasn’t! :clap:


#7

It surely does! I might also rewrite it a little


#8

Just so you know i think the lyrics are great and dont want you to think i was telling you what to do

If you are happy with the song leave as it is :blush:


#9

Well, it’s supposed to be shortened because it’s an intro. I feel it something like ID style. I’ll try rewriting it a bit and writing a verse (maybe even a few ones) and publish the full version a little later


#10

I remember “I am committing suicide” … That was a very catchy topic… I was new here and didnt knew anything about the project… Considered it as a nice poem

My fav. Is silence scream :slight_smile:


#11

Just finished reading them all, amazing work, @NickGr! Really liked everything but just loved “Leave them Behind”! :blush:


#12

Airborn: sounds like a newstart- very powerful pushing

Dust: deep from the inside and focused, great methaphors

The Void: makes me feel you, myself - and the pain :hugs:

Hit the road: a love song- very niiice :heart:️ And I love it’s strengh and your beliving in the good :blush:

Her: awwwww - she must be a wonderful person and you, able to describe her this way- love song the greatest kind Nick :heart_eyes: Your soul is so wonderful deep …

Part two from your lyrics I will enjoy tomorrow :slight_smile: - but your expressions skills are awsome Nick, this already proofed @NickGr :muscle::sunny:️:+1:t2:


#13

Awww :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:


#14

Hey! I’m sort of new here. So yeah, you don’t know me. But just letting you know, I read through some and this stuff is really amazing! It connects so well. So real. Truly amazing.


#15

Welcome to the forums friend. For instance just browse that topics I am sure you will find something of your interest :slight_smile:


#16

Thank you and everyone for kind words! I really appreciate it
And welcome to the forum!


#17

Took some time to read all well… :sweat_smile: All are beatiful lyrics…but “The void” is my favourite…I can feel an earnest soul in every word… and sometimes a connection with them… Good job! :relaxed:


#18

Thank you)
The very first one i’ve ever written actually


#19

@NickGr
First songs will always be our babies…:joy::joy::joy::joy:


#20

Yeah @acemasters
For me my first ballad was really bad… It was completely fiction… Will email you and nick… Y’all would die laughing!! :joy: :joy: